forever and always !

Did I was out of line ?

Did I say something way too honest ?

Made you run and hide

Like a scared little boy !

I looked into your eyes

Thought I knew you for a minute

But now I’m not sure

Back up baby, back up

Did you forget everything ?

And I stared at the phone

He still hasn’t call

And then you feel so low

And you can’t feel anything at all

And you flashback to when he said

FOREVER AND ALWAYS !!

Cause I was there when you said

FOREVER AND ALWAYS !!

~ bila ada rindu, biarkan rindu itu berlalu dgn perlahan-lahan membawa kasih itu pergi ~

bersyukur ke hadrat Illahi !

hye... sorry dh lama x update blog... mls nk top up broadband... dh x da yg menarik lg pon kalo top up broadbnd... alhamdulillah... Sha shat sejahtera tp Sha ada hobi baru skrg ! menambah parut dan luka di bdn... huhuhu~ sbnrnye Sha bru je kne cakar + gigi olh kucing ksygan Sha... beselah... kucing 2 tgk Sha byk sgt luka... 2 yg dy tlg tambah... 

lps top up broadbnd Sha trus bkak studnt portal bcause nk tgk result... alhamdulillah... bersyukur ke hadrat Illahi... result Sha x da la seteruk yg Sha sangkakn... walaupun cukup" mkn tp itu lah yg t'baik yg Sha blh lakukn slps wk2 final exam byk sgt konflik kn... x perlu dinyatakn sbb Sha tw bende ni dh t'sebar... apa yg Sha perlu buat skrg ialah be myself n pas ni kalo nek sems Sha mcm org yg korang x knl... sorry sgt"... bkn sbb Sha nk tp atas sbb yg t'tentu... sems 2 have so much memories... sme ada bek atau pon x tp yg pasti smua 2 bkn mudah nk d'lupakan... my mom penah ckp "tipula kalo along ckp along dh lupa. mesti ada rse kn kalo dgr lagu ni. kalo x knape tbe2 senyap lps dgr lagu ni?"..Sha x tw nk jwb pe... wk2 2 Sha tgh borak" ngan mak Sha... tbe" kt radio kuar plak lagu yg dh lme Sha x dgr or nk dgr... sdih sgt"... hati seorang ibu... smua yg kte lakukn dy mengerti... tw x apa yg mak Sha buat wak2 Sha bgtw prkre 'itu'? mak Sha mrh Sha...! hahaha~ beselah kalo hati dia dh kne ambik... jd mcm tu la... Sha nk buat apa... Sha yg menggatal nk knlkn sgt... pas ni jgn mrh la kalo Sha x ajak g rumah k... mula" my mom x cye n she always keep asking me about him but i still ignore all her questions... pilu sgt hati Sha tp nk wt pe kn... nasi dh jd bubur... she stop asking when my phone langsung x b'bunyi dkat 1 week... dy ingat Sha off phone but then dia tahu smua 2 btul" b'laku...

haaaaaaa~ p'kare lama... sejarah ttp berulang n akan terus berulang.... tp ia makin terus mencabar... now i have 2 make a promise with myself again! promise apa? adalah... Sha dh penah nyatakn kt post Sha sblm ni.... urm... result dh kuar so kne tgu rayuan kolej plak la... X SABAR nk blik pilah tp X SANGGUP nk blik pilah... hahahahaa~ cm ner 2? ntah la....

"YA ALLAH, BANTULAH HAMBAMU INI. HINDARKANLAH SEMUA PERKARA YANG BAKAL MELUKAKAN DIRI INI LAGI WAKTU SEMS HADAPAN. BANTULAH HAMBAMU INI MENGECAPI KEJAYAAN DENGAN HATI YANG TENANG. PERMUDAHKANLAH SEMUA URUSANKU. AMIN"...

~bila ada rindu, biarkan rindu itu berlalu dgn p'lahan-lahan membawa kasih itu pergi~

rindu pilah !

tibe2 Sha rse nk post psl uitm plak la... asyik post bende yg mengarot je kn... mgkn ada org yg x tw psl tmpt study Sha.. Sha study kt uitm cawangan kuala pilah (beting)... tw x npe sha tulis beting skali?? sebab kt kuala pilah ada 2 uitm... kt beting n melang... melang ialah uitm yg lama... mula2 dyorg igt nk ttp uitm kt melang 2 tp d'sbbkn last semester ada problem ngan kolej n klas yg x mencukupi, dyorg t'paksa buka blik uitm melang 2... uitm melang 2 ialah untuk pelajar pra diploma sains n perdagangan... n ada sesetengah klas untuk student bisnes pon kt situ... uitm beting ni x da la bsar sgt... mula2 ckp utk fakulti sains n perladangan je... tp d'sbbkn ada masalah yg x dpt dielakkan so fakulti bisnes pon tbe2 muncul... p'jlnan dr kolej ke kampus hanya memkn masa 10 minit je tp kalo korang dh lmbat nk g klas , x smpai 5 minit masa d'perlukan utk smpai ke kelas... nggeee~ pengakutan ialah kaki anda sendiri... ada 10 bangunan kolej.. 6 utk perempuan n 4 utk lelaki tp x tw mcm mne thn ni lelaki hanya dpt 2 kolej je n perempuan 7kolej... 1 kolej lg utk student lelaki pra diploma sains sahaja....

 ni la permandangan b'hampiran dgn pintu gerbang uitm.... bangunan yg korang nmpk 2 ialah bangunan pentadbiran n bangunan fakulti... 2 je la bangunan yg ada selain bangunan kolej...

permandangan yg korang nmpk di atas plak sebenarnye sme je dgn gmbr di atas ttp gambar ni diambil pada wktu pg dlm pukul 7.30 pg... sejuk je wktu ni... terasa cm b'jln dlm awn... jgn jeles tw... u korang yg kt tgh bandar 2 ada ke cm ni.... jerebu ada la kn... ngeee~

hush hush

I never needed you to be strong

I never needed you for pointing out my wrongs

I never needed pain, I never needed strength

My love for you was strong enough you should have known

I never needed you for judgements

I never needed you to question what I spent

I never ask for help, I take care of myself,

I don’t know why you think you’ve got a hold on me

And it’s a little late for conversations

There isn’t anything for you to say

And my eye’s hurt, hand’s shiver,

So look at me and listen to me because

I don’t want too, stay another minute

I don’t want you, to say a single word

Hush, hush, hush, hush

There is no other way, I get the final say because,

I don’t want too, do this any longer

I don’t want you, there’s nothing left to say

Hush, hush, hush, hush

I’ve already spoken, our love is broken

Baby hush, hush

I never needed your corrections

On everything from how I act to what I say

I never needed words

I never needed hurts

I never needed you to be there everyday

I’m sorry for the way I let go

From everything I wanted when you came along

But I’m never beaten, broken not defeated

I know next to you is not where I belong

And it’s a little late for explanations

There isn’t anything that you can do

And my eye’s hurt, hand’s shiver,

So you will listen when I say

Baby

I don’t want too, stay another minute

I don’t want you, to say a single word

Hush, hush, hush, hush

There is no other way, I get the final say because,

I don’t want too, do this any longer

I don’t want you, there’s nothing left to say

Hush, hush, hush, hush

I’ve already spoken, our love is broken

Baby hush, hush

First I was afraid I was petrified

Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side

But I spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong

But I grew strong I learned how to carry on

Hush, hush, hush hush

I’ve already spoken, our love is broken baby

Oh no, not I

I will survive

as long as i know how to love

I know I will stay alive

I’ve got all my life to live

I’ve got all my love to give

and I’ll survive

I will survive

Hey Hey…

Hush, hush, hush, hush

There is no other way, I get the final say,

I don’t want too, do this any longer

I don’t want you, there’s nothing left to say

Hush, hush, hush, hush

I’ve already spoken, our love is broken

Baby hush, hush

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