bbQ!

last ramadhan sha berbuka bbQ with family besar kat kampung... the best la... dh one year kot kitorang tak buat bbQ... kitorang bakar ayam, udang, sotong sosej and ikan.... 

yg sedang dibakar ! ngee~

best tahu !

my dad with 2 uncle of me....

sedara sha from penang, sabah, kl n yong peng !!

huhu~ mamat poyo from sabah!!

my lovely mom and beloved dad...

me with my aunt....

btwy, today is the best day when i can meet mostly my family from all over malaysia... ngee~ saya nor anira natasha binti rabae ingin mengucapkan selamat hari raya... maaf zahir dan batin... i know i had change.... sorry! 0-0 ok....

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done read 1 blog from my beloved friend.... really appreciate the advice that you give to me.... seriously, sy pon rasa saya dh berubah... bukan rasa tapi memang ! before this i already tell everyone, don't ask me why i'm change... sorry... really sorry from my bottom heart! i try to be the old me but i can't... that's why i need a help from my friend... sorry sebab dah kecewakan awak.... saya bukan nak jadi macam ni tapi saya takut! semua orang nak kawan dengan dia dan tak pandang saya pon... sometimes saya pernah terfikir nak jadi cam dia tapi i realize something... i not pretty if compared me with her....

"i think i'm ugly and nobody wants to love me, just like her, i wanna be pretty, dont lie to my face cause i know i'm ugly"

maybe selalu awak dengar saya nyanyi lagu ni kan.... untuk pengetahuan awak, sebab dia jugalah saya takut nak bagi awak peluang kedua... sorry ! saya tahu awak akan bertambah-tambah kecewa dengan saya.... i try to be neutral with you but it's hard for me.... that's why sometimes bile awak tegur saya, saya tak dapat nak balas dengan baik.... nama pun hati sakit kan.... maybe you do not realize this but seriously, the relationship between you and her like a couple... not only me said this but maybe all people in our texsas... the way she talk to you, the way she touch you, the way she looking at you are not same the way she talk, touch or look at a another woman.... cuba awak fikir-fikir or bayangkan balik apa yang dah terjadi.... i had heard someone say "menyampahnyer aku. berbulu mata aku ni tengok!".... maybe awak tak perasan... saya pernah nak tegur tapi saya tahu saya dah tak layak nak tegur awak... so saya pendamkan sampai masanya saya akan bagitahu awak.... i think the time is now..... hopefully friend can be forever.... salam lebaran... maaf zahir dan batin.... kim salam kat daus nanti ea... rindu la dengan dia... huhu~

gambar ni just untuk tatapan je... x da kaitan pun... huhu~

honestly !!

sha tahu y ngan h marah kat Sha because i still with him.... i just wanna say, i still loving him.... i try to ignore him but i can't...! i try to forget him but i can't ! i just need strength from my bestfriends, so i can loving him with no pain....

y penah citer kat Sha pasal boy y... he still with you and loving you even he know that you had a scandal.... why i can't be like him.... he do that because he love you.... what will happen to you if he break up with you...? did you happy??? so, think that for me...please...

 this is for the first time i give a second change to someone...

h.... you know me right ? you can give a change to a... so why not me??

to my love:

i love you more than you can imagine or think.... what had happen to us is just a fate... but we can through it.... so please... don't do that again k.... if that really true, just confess at me...i wanna you to be honest with me... that's all.... banyak sangat kenangan yang kita ciptakan... terlalu banyak sehingga tak sanggup nak saya lupakan... jangan persiakan peluang kedua yang hati saya telah berikan.... thanks because make me realize what the means of ego.... thanks dear... after this, saya akan jaga setiap pertuturan.... malam itu anggaplah sebagai kenangan yang sangat pahit.... saya mintak maaf sangat atas apa yang saya katakan.... hope you can be the person that first time we meet... love you forever dear ! muaahxx !! 

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